closed ♔ if i could be somebody else | well i think i would for you

[behindcloseddoors]

♬ i would for you - nine inch nails

WHO || Elena & Wynn [closed]
WHAT || Elena goes to speak to Wynn about Kyp
WHERE || Knights HQ, the Round Table room
WHEN || End of May, a couple of days after Elena's party
HOW || Actionspam

[Elena doesn't know what she's doing, but her feet seem to be moving of their own accord.

This is her problem, and she can't help but feel as if she's the root cause for it all. Too many people's happiness, people that she loves, is at stake. She needs to fix this, however she can, and there are only a couple of ways to do it.

But first, she has questions. And she might only be able to get them from one person unless the tries scouring the minds of the other knights of the order.

And she's not sure she's ready to go that far. Or maybe, she just doesn't want to hear. What they say out loud is bad enough, sometimes.

So pretty soon, she's outside the door to Wynn's office, knocking lightly on the door. Wynn has always been an intimidating presence for her, and today is certainly going to be no exception.

Comments

[behindcloseddoors]

You forget who you're talking to. You can lie to them, Elena, but you can't lie--

To yourself.

[notaroundme]

I'm not lying to anyone.

[Proving to people she's okay? All the while trying to prove she's a good person? She doesn't consider it lying.]

If you know me so well, why don't you tell me what you think it is I'm hiding.

[behindcloseddoors]

The part of you that's not afraid of your gift? The part that's thrilled by it, wants to try it out, push the limits. The part of you that wishes Wynn had granted you the opportunity to run off with Kyp and really give it a test drive on Andres.

[notaroundme]

[She actually manages to look offended instead of horrified. Which probably says something tbh.]

I'm trying to do the right thing, not...take my abilities out for a test drive.

[It dawns on her that she's arguing with herself. And it feels...super real. Maybe she's just going crazy now.]

[behindcloseddoors]

Who said you can't have both? I don't remember saying anything about not doing the right thing.

[notaroundme]

You're saying I should....do it anyway?

[S-so unsure.]

[behindcloseddoors]

It's what you want, isn't it? More than that, it's what you need. How else are you going to prove to them that they can trust you? And that your powers have value to them?

[notaroundme]

I'd have to go alone, or I'd have to break him out. That isn't exactly going to put me very high on the trust scale.

[But it isn't like the thought hasn't crossed her mind already.]

[behindcloseddoors]

Maybe not at first, but you have to break some eggs to make an omelette. They'll have a good freak out when it first goes down, but once you've proven yourself, they'll be doubly reassured.

[notaroundme]

Or I'll die, and they'll all think I'm a traitor who left and never came back.

[But she'll have at least tried. She's not any good to anyone here.]

I don't even know if he'll go with me, or run off the first chance he gets.

[behindcloseddoors]

I think that if you give him the option to stay by your side, we both know what he'll choose.

[notaroundme]

[Does she know that? Maybe. Maybe not.]

Or maybe you're just saying that because it's what you want me to do.

[As if she's two different people. Yep, she sure is going crazy. And just rolled a fucking abysmal will save.]

I don't know what to do.

[Maybe you should stop telling that to the crazy reflection in the mirror, Elena...]

[narcosynthesis]

[ and then there's a hand on her shoulder, even though there's no one behind reflection-her. the face in the mirror smiles at her and then... the mirror shatters.

when she turns, it's keijen blade staring down at her, a faint smile on his lips. ] Am I interrupting?

[notaroundme]

[jfc, her heart cannot take this seriously.

she whirls around, attempts to swipe his hand away so that she can take a few hasty steps backwards.

probably means she's stepping on broken glass nbd.]

What the hell is going on?

[narcosynthesis]

I thought we might have something of a chat. But I see you already were in the middle of one. [ and he sounds amused as fuck by it ]

[notaroundme]

You mean you weren't responsible for that?

[Please say you were that would be so much less crazy.]

Why would you want to talk to me, anyway?

[Basically she hates you, creep.]

[narcosynthesis]

Because things are not going so well for you, are they, Elena? Call it a hunch.

[notaroundme]

[Her eyes narrow.]

That doesn't answer either of my questions.

[Wow, how would he even know that, get out.]

[narcosynthesis]

Relax. I merely wish to offer you some help with your... situation. And caution you, about your friend Violet.

[notaroundme]

[Relax. Right.]

You'll have to excuse me if I find it hard to believe that you're here to help anyone, especially me or my friend.

[Sense motive 25. Also she sure is...going to try and read his mind, even if it's not likely to work.]

[narcosynthesis]

[ it doesn't work for one, because he's... not really there, which would become obvious the moment she tried it. IT'S ALL A DREAMMMM. but yeah somethin seems shady about dis. ]

Well, the assistance I can offer would be mutually beneficial, you might say. I don't consider myself a Samaritan.

[notaroundme]

[Yep, that's what I figured. She crinkles up her nose.]

Well, let's hear it.

[Is it fucking terrible that she's glad she has this as a distraction because wow being mad at an asshole is so much better than....whatever the hell just happened first.]

[narcosynthesis]

I doubt Violet has told you much, about the offer made to her each night, has she?

[notaroundme]

Not in vivid detail, no.

[But she doesn't push, because Vi doesn't push her.]

[narcosynthesis]

Then you are unaware that she has accepted to inevitably die, that this is what has pushed her to wed so quickly, that she feels its shadow creeping upon her and does not consider her life worth fighting for?